• I need ideas for how to sell my stain glass windows, besides Ebay.
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• Okay, I have several things to mention. First, Adaptation was brilliant and I'm proud to own it now. It was hands down Cage's best role ever (even better than Raising Arizona). Secondly, I'm also the proud owner of Confessions of a Dangerous Mind, which is another brilliant movie and not coincidentally written by the same guy. Sam Rockwell is stellar. Thirdly, I'm almost finished with my second stain glass window. I learned some valuable lessons in this one. First, there's a reason why you're supposed to make the cuts simple. Second, owning a grinder makes a huge difference in efficiency. Now back to my original list...Thirdly, I must say that I'm ashamed to admit I'm the only trainer at my gym who is out of shape. Depression definitely played an important role in that, but thats been done with for a month now, and I'm still not back into the swing of things. Nolan, it's up to you...get down here and kick my behind. (yes, i'm dependant).
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• Sometimes I wonder about what I'm doing here. Why did God make me? And why did God make me the way I am? Am I even supposed to wonder about that? Sometimes I feel like I'm doubting him when I question my exisitence, or purpose. I hate that. Will I ever change? Can I help the way I am? Will I ever know what my purpose is? Am I like this for a reason, or is it just rooted in my own sinful nature? Will I ever feel a sense of accomplishment? Will I ever be smarter, or more driven, or more creative, or more successful? The other day my Mom told me how a lady at her church wanted to pass a message along to me. The message was from her son, who I don't even remember, who apparently God called to the fold using me. I don't even remember who this kid is. I have no idea what I did, or what I said, but it was a good feeling. I don't remember the last time I felt important, but for one moment I had the satisfaction that I had purpose. Most people go their whole lives never getting to know they made a difference like that in someones life. It was special to get that message. I guess I just have this idea of what I wanted to be like, and I turned out differently than I had hoped, or expected. I always wanted to be the best at something, and I'm only mediocre at some. Maybe I just feel disappointed. Either way, I know that God is still using me or else I wouldn't be here. And getting that message was proof of that. I just need to trust God will take care of me the rest of the way.
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