I have all KINDS of shit to blog about. But guess what? I don't wanna. I always feel unimpressed with myself when I have lots of bloggable material (and this thyme it's a LOT of material) but I haven't got the gumption to post it. But is that REALLY so bad? I mean really. Besides, I've got THINGS to do.

For example, right now I am going to grab a bowl of Rice Krispies, sit on the couch, and watch Ninja Turtles.

Wow. Ok, so I have been away, and I still am. For some reason, I don't like blogging while away. So when I return home, the blogging shall commence. Untill that time, I'm having a blast. Later my friends!

Ok, I lots to blog about, but I can't right now. Blog later. I promise. No seriously, I promise.

In other news...
The big day is comin' up quick! (October 21 is my birthday for all you kids who didn't already know)

It's POLL-TIME!

What is the coolest thing? Just in general.
What is the coolest thing?

Shaving really is not fun at all. Thus, I have given it up completely for the past week-and-a-half-or-so. But I can't decide if I like the look. So I am going to shave some of it off. But what parts?
Facial hairstyles really change your look a lot. And it's a lot of decisions for me too! Should I keep the moustache? What about the goatee? Sidburns? Chinstrap? How thick should I make them? How long? And most importantly... Does it really matter???

Anyways... My computer at home has been getting worse and worse. Well, I should say that my DAD's computer is getting worse and worse. MY computer is doing just fine. But I don't have internet access on mine quite yet. When Blingy and I get a place, we're thinking about high-speed net access. This just seems like such a good idea. I am just concerned about the cost. I don't want to have dial-up, but I think it's all that I am going to be able to afford. Maybe. I guess I don't really have to think about that for a while, since I am not even moving out untill July.

Moving out is really becoming a reality for me finally too. I am one of very few friends that still live at home. And I really dislike it a lot. Ask Bling (or most anyone that knows my family for that matter): Living with my family is no good. I have GOT to get out.

Bling and I discussed moving though, and it seems as though we'll have a very easy time living together. We have a lot of the same wants in a living arrangement, and we hang out so much that we might as well be living together now. We discussed decorating the hosue today. We're not going to pick out curtains together though. That would be weird. I'm reminded by a story from The Dane right now. Ask him about it if you don't already know.

Well, I think that is enough blog to bore you for the day, but thanks for reading. I just wanted to get my thoughts out there in the wild blue yonder. Talk to you later folks.

Well loyal Llama fans, today was a pain in the butt. I don't care what ANYONE tells me, Pima Community College is just like high school. No different at all. I can't wait till I go to the University. It'll be so much better. I'll probably actually LEARN things then. Weird, huh?

Anyhow, I Ms. Used the word "pschosis" tonight. I think I REALLY messed up with it too. Is that even a word? It is, right? I know that it is. But I really didn't use it in it's intended form.

In other news, I am tired. Way tired. So, off to bed I venture.

Ok, seriously, I thought a lot tonight aout something after reading Jett's blog today.

It's really quite nice to be single. I think the reason kept thinking "gotta get into a relationship" is because it's been pounded into my head that that is what you do. You get involved in relationships. I started evaluating why I wanted a relationship tonight. It's actually quite simple.

So I have someone to hang out with and have fun with.
So I have someone to talk to about random stuff.
So I have someone to rely on, and who can rely on me.

But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that I already HAVE all that. Bling and The Dude already give me that here, and my blogger buddies give me that on the net. So the only thing that getting involved in that kind of relationship would do is give me commitment. And I don't have time for that at this juncture in my life. So why do I complain? Aye aye aye. If only I had figured this out before.

Ladies, I'm single. And I want nuny'all.

Jett owes me a t-shirt.

PS: Jett, I'm still looking. But so far, not lookin' so good.

"Fantastic Night to Come for Llama" say authorities.

Alright, tonight is gonna be hellafied fun. It's MIDNIGHT MADNESS out here at the University of Arizona. I'm quite excited about it. Gonna have all kinds of stuff goin' on that will be way cool. More when that's all said and done.

I AM IN SUCH A GOOD MOOD! Don't ask me why, because I don't know. But all I can say is things will be way cool tonight, even if nothing really cool happens. Just because I am in SUCH a good mood. Hopefully nothing bad will happen... like someone doing something stupid to my baby! (Aww... I love my Honda!) Anyways, it's time that I checkout the hotties the stadium scene and see what's goin' on! Laaaate.

Freddy,

You're awesome dude. I miss you.

-Chris

Rather accurate, I would say!


Which ArchAngel are you most like?
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Michael. You're most like the ArchAngel of Defense. You like to hit things, and you like naked people, preferably cute naked people. A real down-to-earth angel who likes frogs and is easily distracted by bright, shiny things.

Yeah, so upon reading my blog from yesterday, I started thinking. I'm only 19. That leaves me with plenty of time. I just was looking at it too negatively last night. Which brought me to another realization. I have been really negative lately in comparison with my usual self. So I took a walk through my mind and realized that I really need cut it out, because the reasons I have been stressing are 1) not true 2) not my fault or 3) not worth stressing over. And as I realized this, I smiled a big smile.

I'm back.

I used to be the spokesperson for being happy and not worrying. I let stupid things get in the way of happiness; things that weren't even my own problems. And I have been trying carry them on my shoulders as my own problems, but I wasn't doing so well with that. So I have decided to still care about those problems, but I have made the distinction in my mind that they aren't my fault.

In related news, it's a little easier to breath today, as well as smile. =)

And at that moment, his heart sank to depths that were previously unknown to mankind. But as his heart fell thousands of leagues into the dark, he took a breath, and smiled. Sometimes, you just have accept some truths. But I'm beginning to wonder if it'll ever happen.

However, I guess I shouldn't look at it that way. I should just play it cool, like Bling told me.

I know I am young, but it just seems like it's not supposed to happen for me. Everytime it ends up real sour... or it doesn't happen at all. I see everyone else happy together... but it's like I'm on the street on Christmas Day... looking in a window, watching people happy together in their warm houses, full of love and friendship. I've got friends, I know. But I still feel a lack of something. Of that kind of companionship... that's what I want. ::heavy sigh:: Well, I am young. There are years ahead of me, of which I can not even begin to imagine the contents.

Smile. Just remember to smile.

So I got called something tonight by miss Jett Superior that really made me smile for some reason.

JettSuperior: G'nite!
JettSuperior: Lovely ChristoCharmer!

In other news, I had something else to say, and I really was quite decided that I was gonna post it. But now I don't have the foggiest as to what it was gonna be.

Damn.

In OTHER other news, I am working on getting my digital camera to run on this computer. (Lost the drivers, trying to get them.) Once I get it going, look out.

Ok, here's a question for those of you who have a little more experience with life than do I:

Are there ever days where things DON'T suck for at least 24 hours; where everything just goes right for at least one sunrise to the next?

Sometimes I just want to scream, and never stop.

Every day it's getting harder and harder to deal with this. ::sigh:: Give me strength. Please? Just enough to get through this.

The Dude: "I think what is really funny is how everyone thinks you are an asshole and nobody has any courage to tell you."