Friday, September 30, 2005

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I know I haven't posted in forever. But for some reason I need it right now. We are expecting our second baby Jan 11th, 06 and Ellie is now a toddler. I love being a mom but I am so worn out right now. Ellie and Mike were sick for a week and a half and then I finally got sick- with a DIFFERENT cold the same day that Mike and Ellie caught it too. So now we are all sick with a new bug and I am just barely able to see any hope in this. I know its just because I'm tired but I am fighting the tears. Eyes are beginning to well up. Work has sucked today and I was reminded about work life in an office with another female who may or may not be hormonal but for some reason decided to snap at me and emailed it to all her bosses too. The company I work for is contracted and she works for the district that hires us and she emailed her complaint to all the ones who give us the work and now I'm a bit teary about not meeting her expectations- which really isn't nice because she never has said a peep about my invoices before...actually she's always been very pleasant so it struck me all out of the blue so now I'm dealing with that and having 6 hours of sleep in the past 3 days, having to care for Ellie, be sick, have pregnancy hormones, Mike has been out of town this whole week, and I'm housesitting and babysitting for my parents. I just can't keep up or measure up to where I want to be right now in my life. Thankfully I'm picking Mike up in a half hour and maybe I can relax for a minute or two. I need a little time of reflection on Christ to snap me out of this.

 1:46 PM   •  1 dove of hope